I feel exactly the same way you do. For 7 months, I've thought of nothing else. And I was shell-shocked. Never did I imagine I'd be here, never did I think I'd want to reconcile after the cheating. Love makes you do crazy things.
My H even said that I would never forgive him for cheating. I responded that I thought it'd be easier to forgive the cheating than forgive him for not trying to save a 25-year R and family. My friends think that's nuts.
So I don't think the WAS can see past the affair fog. And if they can, they don't think they'll be forgiven. And I don't think they can be reasonable or rational at all.
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16
