Hi V, I appreciate you taking time for me, so here we go.
What do you mean by crutch? I find the strength to keep trying by doing whats best for my kids. I have felt a few times like giving up but my son and daughters deserve my best effort. My dedication to my family keeps me going when I am downhearted.
Only one crutch? I believe so, besides my family my only motivation is my love for my wife. I don't view that as crutch. It's the reason I'm here but not a crutch.
Is it the right or left side? Is this a function of the right vs left brain? I do not visualize a crutch, just my family and that buoys me.
Are you right or left handed? I bat and throw lefty and I write righty.
Do you only see attraction in terms of R? I am attracted to women that I will never have a relationship with. When there is an attraction and an opportunity for a R to evolve, that's where the slippery slope to a EA may be found.
Please explain what friendship means to you. Friendship is something two individuals share when they enjoy each others company, common interests and experiences.
Please describe your earliest friend. He was just another boy in the neighborhood. He lived a few doors down. We rode bikes, played sports, went swimming together and boy stuff like that.
Please tell me what you like most about your current best friend. I don't have a best friend. I have a few friends I rarely see. Most of the people I'm friendly with are mutual friends of my wife's. If I am divorced I will drop my wife, drop the friends and start a new life out west. To be honest, right now, I'm not sure I even want any friends, maybe a dog. The irony is that I am an extrovert pondering life as a hermit. My only weakness is women and I'm not sure I can trust anyone again. One risks a lot of pain for companionship and people let you down.
