Just dropping by real quick. I am still really sick. I think it's walking pneumonia. I am exhausted by the end of the day and tried exercising and my chest was hurting. I am sure that This is the cause of my really bad mental outlook lately.
Arose, I definatly pursue. I think when I dont, I get more response from husband I just am impatient. Usually I stop when I get furious and give up and then he does come around and I take bait and pursue again.
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Thank you, thank you thank you. You serve as a good example. I have been really hurting and angry at my husband. I was ready to wait a month and then kind of give him ultimatum, with being ok moving forward. He just told me he had a pretty serious health event. He was having these issues prior to leaving as well. It was a big scare for him before he left. It has to be a big scare for him now. He is young to have these types of issues. Of course I am worried and more sympathetic.
I am really backing down and giving him the space he requests. He told me during last talk that he needed to get his life straightened out. He has OCD and I get this feeling that work has turned into a bizarre compulsion for him. They take advantage of it and he literally looked like he was going to cry when he talked about the stress of it. He made this comment " I can't let things go undone". " I need to work to provide". I told him in a nice way (no sarcasm) that I don't understand because he is not going to have a family to provide for.
I am just going to be there for him when he needs it. I feel detached right now but I do love him and want him to be healthy. I think this is more about a mental breakdown with husband. I realize that I have to just let go and come to the conclusion that sometimes it's not all about me. He is not running around with other women. He is not enjoying life and freedom. He is miserable and unstable.i am not going to add more stress.
