Wow, mind is blown 13

[Uphill]

I wouldn't say angry, more frustrated... There may be some anger but that's not the overwhelming one. It just [censored] to see and hear what I did a few days ago and POOF, back to square one. It's a vicious cycle and I'm honestly getting really tired of it. A month or so ago, I felt like I was off this rollercoaster. I was talkIng to a new girl and things seemed to be going decent there. I kinda blew her off because I started feeling differently than I thought and didn't want to complicate things.

This is the most confusing thing I have ever dealt with in my life. I usually thrive in situations like this and figure out a way to make things work when nobody else can. Not necessarily in relationships but I can take anything apart and put it together better. Make it go faster, higher or whatever the goal is. This just has me stumped.