Got into a phone argument with wah. I know ot was my fault since I got annoyed, he got an attitude, then I cried.. Yeah not good.
I had him say this is why he left because I'm difficult.
Our fight was over the kids schedule. He said he would watch them saturday,Sunday and Wednesday. I thought that meant next Wednesday.now he meant this Wednesday in 2 days.
I was confused since he kept saying saturday,Sunday, Wednesday. He called me an idiot. I got emotional and told him to stop making me feel like an idiot.
He wouldn't keep them Thursday since he had to go to OW town. I Got pissy..he got annoyed.
He told me to have the kids call him at work. I said Idk we will see. He called me difficult, I said I didn't think calling at work for the kids to talk was the best idea.
It was just bad 20 minutes of him mad and me crying( Just a little but he can tell) the last 10 while we argued.
I feel like a failure.
We already argued this morning too at 10 am over me not answering his calls when I was too busy.
I'm ready for bed. Apparently I sucked at NC today. 2 calls and 2 arguments.
Now what..idfk. I feel like a lost duck. I am drowning in my own pityparty since finding out about my h and the ow.
This thread name really describes me right now. I do not know what to do with myself today.
