Too Much Time Is Passing By

[HopeRB]

I know I can't fake detaching. And I think I've been doing a good job at but need to practice more. I am just so hard on myself when I know I could have done better. I guess I shouldn't have said I never gave up on our M. But, inside part of the reason I can feel good sometimes is when I remember I will be ok without him and our M. I read this on another thread and have seen it even before that but have really been thinking about it lately:

"There is a difference between moving on and moving forward." I've been sitting with that one for a few days now and realizing I can move forward (b/c I have to) without moving on from my H or M...at least until I feel I'm able actually release hope and move on completely to another person. I'm moving on from the old M. I would like a new M with my H but I am also moving forward. Am I even making sense? I don't know anymore lol. But I am also working on myself. But whats also frustrating is that H seems to be doing all of the same things I'm doing but we just aren't doing them together.