Vise, Hang on buddy, it gets better, it really does, but man oh man, wait until you release her from your mind, you will loose soo much weight, you will think you are flying.
I know what you are going trough, Fogg does as well, Otw and a couple of other blokes as well. I felt like my heart was ripped from my guts, then thrown in front of me and then stomped on and set on fire while the evil bitch grinned in my face. She rubbed the affair in my face, I was a zombie for a better part of the year post BD.
Then it just clicked. [censored] that! I deserve better than that. I deserve love and some respect. [censored] that $hit. I came to the realization that I will be just fine if I'm alone. I have my kids, I'm gonna be the best god damn dad EVER. And if the bitch was willing to throw away the best thing that ever happened to her, well that is her right and HER GOD DAMN LOSS.
I WILL NOT ME HER KEEPER. She is an adult, she can learn to fend for herself. I am not being a dick to her, but her favor asking days are OVER. I am here for ME an MY KIDS and MY FRIEND and MY FAMILY. AND THAT IS IT.
Believe me Vise, I carried the weight of the world in my heart, I soooo wanted to explode at times, numerous times I asked WHY to the sky.
I got ME back. I grew and I continue growing, I learned to do stuff I never dreamed, I got "superpowers", I can read people like a book and a whole bunch more.
I do not know if you believe in God, bud Vise, the higher power is the only authority that can help you and take the burden for you. What we loaded onto ourselves was waaaaaaaaaaaaay more than we could carry, so it was either give it to The big guy, or end up crushed under 16 tons of crap our exes piled onto us. I chose door No. 1 and man it feels good. It feels good to breathe again.
I would be lying if I said I do not care for my X any more, but she is making her choices and I respect that. I do not snoop, it is really pointless, I am most glad when I don't hear or see her. I have life of my own, I have hobbies, I travel the world on my own, I loooooove my new life, I get a do over on everything. Find out what you really want in life and make it happen. Your life is no over Vise, it is only beginning.
