Not sure where to stand

[TimR]

Boy Sparkles (lol) I wish I knew how to get a spouse out of their fog! If I did many of us would not be here. I most certainly would be back with my wife.

I asked my counselor about when do I know its time to let go and move on away from W. I explained my entire life revolves around winning and losing and not quitting. My job in litigation is win/lose, wrestling win/low, judo win/lose. I turn so much into competition. I explained while right now I still have this burning love for my W but what about the future. What if I am still fighting because "I just don't want to lose" His response was in your heart you will know, until then keep fighting. I think the same could apply to you.

I have days when I think F this I am just going to move one. A few moments later I am thinking how much I just want to hold and cuddle her. Maybe its not meant to be but for now I am going to keep fighting. In your heart you will know when it is over, over and not just frustration talking.

I hope you the very best Sparks!!