New night(s)

[kyrie]

Hi! Yes, I need to catch up. Friday I hit my wall...my limit. He pushed and pushed after a long day. He brought up divorce again and I acquiesced (for lack of a better word). Kinda like saying "FINE!". I handed him a sheet of paper to start writing out an agreement or whatever. Then he stopped. It was really ugly on my part - I haven't been that in-your-face to him in a very long time.

I went to bed. Next morning we got a text that his grandmother, with whom he was always very close - closer than his mother if that tells you something, was in the ICU. She's long had health issues and is 77 years old. Spent most of Saturday & Sunday trying to find out what's going on (dying, will happen soon) and what to do (fly? drive? all of us?). She wanted him to do her funeral, and that's only right. So, any divorce/separation talk went on hold.
He acknowledged that my support during this has been helpful and even kind (WOW, that's huge from him - usually it's all how terrible of a wife/woman/human I am). Thing have actually been kinda good in the house since all this hit. We played some games together and talked a bit about lighthearted things.

I had made up my mind to stop all "trying" and even go dark/separate completely. I have stopped doing his laundry and some of the little things ... it feels rather 'dirty' to do that, especially while he's trying to deal with this stuff with his grandmother.

Just got a text from him asking if I had been talking to the Bishop...whooo boy...