In House S (7)

[vise82]

Yes,

I know that I need to detatch, but she has been such a part of my life and still is.

So she emailed me this morning asking how my house is coming along and if I am ok with an open house this weekend?

Its almost like she cares. I can see my self changing how I am looking at the sitch and adjusting my thoughts to think its not that bad I can live like this, we can still have a R in separate houses, it will all work out.

It does matter who she is bedding or not, If she is holding off from having a R with other men then that means she was truthful with wanting a S to think things through, to give us a chance to see if her feelings for me would come back for her.

I guess its all mind reading and not believing what she tells me.

This is not easy to let go. Even to fake it.

So for this email, in true DB form I need to reply : Yes go ahead with the open house.

Because I want to plead with her not to go through with it, there is a chance for us, this is not what I want, lets stay in the house together...