I was speaking to my w and she again mentioned that she was hoping thay we would grow old together and see our grandchildren. I told her that I am going to be working on my personal growth and would like to volunteer abroad on a small project. I told her that I am considering future work in the middle east as I don't intend to remarry. She answered that she wished I had been like this before and prioritized her and the children and did everything to give us a better life. She said that I have become more selfless since the separation and sees our last separation as a waste of valuable time. She continued by saying that all I did then was loose a few pounds and didn't really change. I replied that I am going to go a be the man I should have been and if she wants to come along for the ride the door is open.
She seemed to have trouble understanding that the divorce can be stopped and that even if it goes through, we can start again. She said that she will miss me and doesn't intend to remarry as a divorcee. She even said that she will cry when we divorce but now thinks that I will be ok as I have my new life to look forward to?!
It almost felt like there could be hope for the future by me GAL and doing a 180.
I don't want to keep looking for reassurances and I have to move out to implement the plan but I feel I have to tread carefully and need some advice how I can navigate this. I also need a plan to try and stop the divorce process.
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?