Yes your right. It's a waste to analyze them. So hard to not want answers though. Truth is they don't even know.
I have a short term plan and that is to get through the month giving him space and then reevaluating myself and the situation. Right now I recognize a depression (probably from being sick and the stress of all this) and its a bad time to do or say anything.
I need to socialize too. Ran into a friend today and just talking to her for 20 minutes while watching our kids made me feel better. (She is really against divorce because of her parents but thinks at this point i can't stay like this anymore)
