Juju,

It's tough ain't it?

I'm sorry you are hurting. This whole process [censored].

But the only way to feel better is to feel the pain. Keep going Juju.

Plan fun things for you and the kids. Try things you've never done before with them. Mix it up a little bit.

Try to create a sense of adventure for you and the kids. I think you'll be surprised to not think about H when you are trying something new.