Are we all just fooling ourselves that this works, that anything we do or don't do makes a difference? That it's best to have no contact, even if that means they just go on about their merry way? My W said she was so close to giving up her affair, then I told her I couldn't take her indecision any more, and now I feel that standing up for myself just made her more likely to stay with the ow. Every day is a trial and it feels like I get convicted and imprisoned every single day. Yes, I know it's a pity party, but that's me right now. I'm almost 60, my perfect life is gone, I'm desperately unhappy despite doing everything I can think of to feel better. Everything tells me this A is doomed, but I don't know how I can continue in this new "life" that is now mine. I want to stop this pain. I can't bear it. I am so miserable. My beautiful partner has left me and I can't bear it. I only want her to come back to me. I can't take this pain. I don't care if "it gets better", all I want is for her to come back to me. Please, can someone or something give me hope?
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
