Thank you guys for the encouragement and knowing that we are all not alone. I was so amped up after church that I came home, put on some music and danced around. That got me pumped to go the gym and that's when H decided to text and ask if I'm home so he can come by. I told him I'm at the gym but I'll let him know when I get back.
So now, just praying I keep together. I will. Wish me luck.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."