I was having a moment earlier. I took half of my anxiety pill and relaxed.
It ended up working out that his friend came over. While wah was cold,distant his friend was very loving as always so it made me happy.
He also mentioned he heard I had a fun crazy night out and winked. My h doesnt know what I did and his friend doesnt either really. I told his wife I had a great night out so I think he was trying to help by mentioning my night out. I didnt even tell her what I did just told her I had fun.
I told him I had an amazing time out.
He's like mama still got it. You look really good too!
I have dyed my hair and changed some things and lost a few more pounds since I saw him.
I feel like I CAN BREATHE. I will not see H until Thursday I don't think. Maybe Wednesday, but I'm very excited to just be my kids and me.
I'm starting to enjoy the time alone.
Also what is HAPPENING TO MY H
HE IS LETTING HIMSELF GO
before when married, I would always cut his hair and let him know when to trim his beard etc.
While separated he started getting it all professionally done and looking gorgeous.
Since I found out about the ow, he looks..old. He has not shaved and looking really scruffy. His hair needs to be cut, he looks like he just doesnt care much right now how he looks.
I had to hold it in to not tell him that he should shave and do his hair since he looks so good with it done.
It is just strange that he stopped,(at least in the last week or two.)
