Thank you Rick. I actually have a very aggressive treatment plan in place which consists of practically daily AA meetings. A group therapy 1x a week facilitated by my psychiatrist who I also see individually and I am starting outpatient drug/alcohol treatment which will be two nights a week. I hear what you're saying and I thank you because I need to hear it and hear it and hear it. It is very difficult to not beat myself silly and I have a lot of work to do. One thing I am focusing on is consistency.
There is one area in which I am very fortunate. The treatment and recovery plan I am starting to work has two potential benefits. One is that I get sober and stay sober and improve my quality of life. Another is that I have the opportunity to show my family that I'm committed to change and to being the dad and husband they need. Therefore, when I get down and driven by wanting my marriage back, what I'm doing is also good for me and when I'm focused on me, it also helps my reconciliation efforts.
