Welcome and Im sorry you find yourself here. The way you view yourself needs to change. It will not help you to better yourself. Beating yourself down does not work. It has the opposite effect. Addiction is tough but treatable. Ambivalence about not using will make you crazy. But normal. You cant change what has been done. And you cant predict what is coming. But you can deal with what is presented today in the right now. AA is a good thing. Also try a counselor and do some therapy. Your W will want to see actions. Words and promises dont mean anything to her any longer.
Most importantly....do the right thing for you and not to save the M (and I pray that you do save it).
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M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
