Still NC - Who is Thornton?

[Thornton]

Thanks guys.

I need to go to the grocery store so Ill do that. Then maybe head to the library to see if I can find something new to read.

[someguy1233]

Have you read The Martian? I read it recently... I couldn't put it down!

[Phoebe]

Sorry that it's been a tough day, Thornton. I hope that you found something good at the library. There's nothing like a great book to keep your mind busy and distracted form the everyday world.

[Thornton]

I haven't made it to the library, I went grocery shopping and then came home to rest. I'm feeling tired today, sad.

I went to the gym this morning and worked out pretty hard so I hope I will sleep tonight.

I wish I had more time under my belt but I'm only one month in. I hear people say the first 3 months is the hardest, given that timeline, I have a ways to go.

Grocery shopping is hard for me because of all the reminders. W and I used to play around a lot when we shopped. I would do a funny dance in the middle of the aisle and have her cracking up. She would make funny faces at me from across the store.

I wish I could reboot my mind and just erase my memories. In the meantime, she appears to be getting along just fine according to my family who are still friends with her on FB. I don't ask for details because I don't want to know but it hurts to think she can just walk away from our life together and our kids and be happy.

I fluctuate between beating myself up about not doing things differently and saying good riddance.

Honestly I'm a little scared of what the future holds.

[TimR]

Thornton, we are all scared on here. It is what we do with that fear that makes the difference. You cannot allow that fear and depression to consume you. I cannot tell you what the future is going to hold for you, even if you perform the greatest DBing in history. But I can tell you, you have grown and are a leader. Look through the posts and see how others have been inspired by you. Let YOU be your motivation!!

[HopeRB]

Hope you're feeling a little better right now Thornton - you're not alone and we are all here in the company of great people.

[broke]

Thornton,

Hope you are feeling better tonight. I picture you dancing in the grocery store aisles and it made me smile. You have already come really far in just one month. Look at all the goals you wrote up! And, you are such a great source of support for a lot of us. I hate that you are going through this. I don't wish this on my worst enemy. But I feel blessed to have your help as I go through it.

[Thornton]

Thanks everyone. I just came home after dropping D16's boyfriend off. We stopped by a store on the way home and I got some new jeans and a belt.

I love getting new clothes, W used to say I'm like a girl because I like to shop for new clothes.

We're going to just relax tonight and probably watch a movie. Tomorrow I'll be back in the gym and then probably head over to the library.

I'm looking forward to seeing IC on Monday night. It helps me to process things.

I don't know what I would do without you guys. Thanks for always being there.

[TimR]

Hey I went shopping today too! I got 4 new shirts! Stuff I would not normally wear but I think I looked good in it. Oh God, am I gonna be one of those guys that people say dress like a teenager??? W always said I dress terrible, so I bought some outfits off the mannequin. Fake it till you make it right?

[Thornton]

I'll be your wingman any day, Buddy. The ladies won't know what hit them!