TimR, I got caught up on your sitch last night and I'm so sorry your W is behaving that way. It's almost as if she is realizing what she has done, is mad at herself and taking it out on you. Maybe that's what my H is doing but his anger at himself turns into stonewalling me. But you seem unshakeable and I think you're handling it pretty well. But I'm no vet by any means. And sometimes, I do wish he would at least be vocal about his anger to me so I could get some insight into what he's thinking. I have no clue what's going on his head. He doesn't say anything about it. He's all business with me.
Tonight, I'd normally be trying out a new recipe or making H's favorite cookies. I wanted to go out but I need to meet more friends b/c all of my friends are H's friends. Well, I don't know about that anymore. I was debating going to one of the local watering holes but don't know if that's such a good idea b/c when I go by myself, I drink, talk to random men about my sitch, they "allow me to vent" (read: try to take advantage of my situation), and then I end up going home still feeling lonely but with no one to laugh with. Don't feel like doing much of anything but I NEED to interact with someone. I'm going stir crazy in this apartment.
On the plus side, I just ordered a delicious pizza and very much looking forward to eating it - although it's from one of me and H's favorite spots.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
