Thank you V for taking time me. I'll get right to it.
Where does this sense of not trusting yourself come from? I am afraid of sabotaging my marriage.
Is this sense because you connect easily with women rather than men? I think I do. I like women.
So how are you using your family connection as a crutch? It is best for my son if we stay together as a family while he finishes high school. When I get down and want to give up, I use my families best interest as a way to keep me going.
What does it feel like to be seen as an attractive man in this world? There are many facets of attraction. At its most basic level it manifests itself as desire and from there works it way eventually to love.
How are you going to handle that you have become a man only a fool would leave? I don't know. I am afraid of getting hurt again. I want emotional and physical intimacy but am not sure I want to risk the pain.
Is this stopping you from having a rounded life? I think so.
