Pushed submit before I was finished with my thoughts:

It's weird b/c though I feel stronger, I also feel discouraged. Like how can anything change if we're not even communicating? He just has no desire to contact me at all. Guess I should just stop hoping b/c I literally have nothing to go off of. I think he's forgotten about me. A few weeks ago, his friend told me that he seems fine but says at the back of his mind, he thinks about me. How can I go from spending so much time with someone to being only at the back of their mind? Just feeling so insignificant even though I know I'm important. This kind of thing makes me just feel like giving up hope b/c his actions say he could care less.


"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."