I just reread all your posts. I am a very lucky man to have friends like you. Your support and kindness makes me feel loved. I love you all and hope you all find what you need.
I am drawn to Jelly and when there was the possibility of more private communication I had to reflect on my motivation and then I followed it to it's logical conclusion. Where I went is not where I can go. I brought Fo into it simply to force myself to keep myself honest and in check. I really like you two.
I am not suffering in my marriage, or I am so used to this level of pain it seems normal. What happened today was that I realized what I have been missing for the last 14 months.
My dear friend Jelly, I am so sorry to drag you into my drama. I was tempted to take the cowards way out and lie but I could not do that to you. You are my friend and deserve only honesty. I feel guilty, like I have let you down. I am so sorry Jelly.
I usually comment about each of your posts but today please excuse me, I'll simply say Je t'aime tous chers amis. I now have some explaining to do with dear Vanilla.
