Went to the gym earlier today. Trying to re-evaluate and redefine my goals b/c I'm feeling like I'm just kind of floating about through life right now.

H has not reached out. I probably shouldn't follow up right? But I now I worry about going dark for no reason, which is whats been going on. I have backed off from initiating contact with him but not sure what this is accomplishing at this point. So really just kind of confused on what I'm supposed to be doing. I tried to schedule a call with DB coach but she's booked until next week.

"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."