I am holding this together for my children. I am trying to save this marriage for my wife in the hope that she is in a MLC of sorts and may one day want a relationship with me. I am using my commitment to my family as a crutch to travel down this path. There are moments I am barely keeping it together. I don't trust myself not to latch on to Jelly or Fo. I like them. I am in tears right now. My attachment is stronger then I thought. I am married and cannot do what I want. I can't do this. I don't trust myself.
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Where does this sense of not trusting yourself come from?
Is this sense because you connect easily with women rather than men?
So how are you using your family connection as a crutch?
What does it feel like to be seen as an attractive man in this world?
How are you going to handle that you have become a man only a fool would leave?
Is this stopping you from having a rounded life?
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Until we can mourn the past we are doomed to repeat it
