Stepping in a Different Direction

[Pax_luv]

Hello DBland,
It's interesting... I'm finding it harder and harder to follow the boards these days. It blows my mind to see how many new people have joined just in the last 6 weeks. I feel for everyone who is new to their sitch and dealing with the sheer agony of all this.

I know many folks have mentioned they left the forum because it's too hard to relive their situation through everyone else's... And I totally get it now. It's tough.

I had a pleasant week. Too much GALing.... It definitely helps. I'm going to try and make some plans for tonight, too. H has been on my mind a lot.... Had some unpleasant dreams about him. I guess its my subconcious telling me things! We had a cordial dog swap yesterday. he seems really happy again. I know it's hard to tell in a 30 second window, but he seems more relaxed.

Sometimes I wonder if me being bubbly and happy with my life made it easier for him to move on too? That may sound weird... But what I'm making up is that he may have felt something along the lines of "Feyth is super great on her own. She's always upbeat around me and totally ok with me doing my thing, we're still friendly...and we can both be happy now." Meh- maybe/ maybe not. It doesn't matter. He is allowed to feel what he feels.

Oh and last thing... Somehow I made it to sleeping in the center of my bed! I just noticed it two nights ago. It only took 8 months to get there.

Have a great weekend everyone.