Feeling anxious this morning. Another week has passed with no contact. The longer this goes on, the further I feel she slips away.
I'm going to go to the gym and work out as hard as I can. Then I'll probably go grocery shopping and then wash my car.
I wish I could get my mind off of her. I keep wondering what she is thinking and if she misses me too.
I keep trying to remind myself of how poorly she has handled things but then I remember the loving W and how she would make me smile and laugh.
I read an interesting article about avoidant attachment and w fits the bill to a T. I think that's why we do so well when being together but not living together because she knows she will have space.
I also noticed our sex life was so much better when we lived apart. As soon as we moved in to our house, her sex drive plummeted.
I remember asking her about it and she said previous ex boyfriends had complained about it too. But she never really wanted to do anything to change it.
Maybe I was trying to change her into someone she just isn't capable of being. Maybe her fears of intimacy are just too great to overcome.
