MLC and depression go hand in hand. In fact, depression is the main ingredient of MLC. Here's a list of reading materials that may assist you. I would highly recommend that you read up on depression. It's a bit different for males vs. females:
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.