I see each interaction with her as an opportunity to move this thing along. I'm so miserable and so I put on a great act when I see her, but I lose my patience and push a bit too far. Last night she texted and asked if I would give her one of my bikes back. It's a commuter bike that is my backup should my regular one be out of commission. When we were together I always let her use it. My first thought was NO! But I didn't want to be harsh. So I found some dancing emoticons and sent one shaking it's head in an incredulous and emphatic no. It was late and I was astounded to get a text back immediately- a bike. So I texted again, this time a big dancing Ha Ha Ha. She texted back UR so tech savvy!! I was thrilled and resisted the urge to send one more, and just let it drop. Then I've been thinking about the fact that W was up so late to text me. Very unusual. So then I imagined that they text a lot and flirt and are enjoying the forbidden fruit of a still mostly secret affair where they hold back and see each other secretly and that builds the passion and intensity and THAT'S why she can't or won't let it go. She must still be deep in affair fog and it's getting thicker, not dissipating at all. That's the way I drive myself crazy. Yesterday she asked if I'm going to yoga and mentioned that she is. I said no, and that I'm going to another class right after yoga. She seemed glad that I'm still going. So I will probably see her there.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
