DbD- please slow down. I know you're hurting and it feels like you keep getting hit with punch after punch. You are free to decide if you want to try for a future together, but don't make that decision out of emotion. Take some time and clear your head. You don't have to talk tonight and can excuse yourself from any conversations.
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done