Just reporting back. Had an interesting conversation with IC. She said that before Valentine Day she felt that I had let go and now she feels I'm back on the roller coaster. She said that it feels like my STBXH has noticed that I had let go and he is pulling me back in! I found this very interesting. She also added that she had no concern about my recovery and how I'm feeling now show growth within me as even if I'm emotionally in turmoil I'm not in tears like before and that it's only a set back! What triggered me was the fact that he bought 2 roses plants from the kids for VD (knowing that he never celebrated it!). IC can't even understand why he did it knowing that we never celebrated VD.
Did a 180 today as I went back to the pub where I saw him and her before Christmas, there was no pain. I wanted to go back to challenge myself and I did it. I'm proud of me. STBXH is still with OW as when I was in the pub, his friends turned up but not him. How funny life is, when we were together he wouldn't give up going out with his friends and his hobbies, whereas now he has for OW!
