It makes it so much harder! I burst into tears about it right in front of him because I just can't get over how nice he is and plans on being. It makes it even more of a personal blow that he wants the D because it's just me he doesn't want. That hurts the most. 10000 times over.
I have to stop myself from letting that get into my head and eat me alive. I feel like it's started chipping away at my soul...so very painful.
But alas, we grow from the pain...right? I've learned a lot of good lessons and this is just the beginning.
