Love you girl. Our baby all grown up, taking care after business and making herself a priority... Hurrayyy!!!
Red, I am really proud of you. You have been in such difficult situation. Nasty discoveries, with your would suddenly upside down, and look at you. You are still handling it. You are not in any meaning down to the ground even if it feels like.
Every single day will make you stronger and you will feel a little better. I am not saying you will be happy, it is just a bit better, more peace inside yourself and more clear path to work in whatever situation you have.
Your list look great darling. Actually, you are doing much better then I did on my days, you have a list of your priorities. Take credit for your efforts and be proud of yourself, it will build confidence and will make you a much better person.
Red, it's all upside down right now, but remember that life goes around and many sitches change. What your H is saying today may not be the same in a year.
As the time goes you will see that you will be able to apply more and more the principles of DB. You will see that many things will make sense and they are more for "YOU" then anything else.
Have faith, keep praying and applying yourself towards the woman you want to be and you will even get your H's head turning towards you trying to figure who is this beautiful woman that he was being a jerk to.
It's not going to be always easy, it's not going to be hell forever... it will just be "YOU" becoming a beautiful butterfly with longs and colorful wings flying high and seeing the world the way "YOU" want to see it.
