Staying the Course Pt. II

[HopeRB]

Journaling:

Tonight will be a lot smoother. Having a glass of wine right now at the local coffee shop, sending out my resume/portfolio. Will try to go for a run, do some leg stuff and call it a night. Rinse and repeat.

[broke]

I'm having wine, too! Wish you were here to share. Sounds like you gave a great plan for the evening. I hope it's a great one!

[Vanilla]

I wake up for therapy this morning and then get a text from H this morning and this is the exchange:

H: How are you doing?
H: Are you around this weekend? I wanted to come and check-in on you.
M: I'm ok. Yes, I should be here.
H: Ok.
H: I'm sorry we haven't spoken, that's not right.
M: I understand. I know you're busy.

Alternative

I wake up for therapy this morning and then get a text from H this morning and this is the exchange:

H: How are you doing?
H: Are you around this weekend? I wanted to come and check-in on you.
M: I'm excellent this morning thank you for asking and wanting to check in.
H: Ok.
H: I'm sorry we haven't spoken, that's not right.
M: I hear you say you are sorry we haven't spoken much and it is not right. I have an action packed weekend to look forward to so have to go. Have a great time and thank you for catching up. Bye now.

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Just my thoughts

V

[HopeRB]

Ended up going to another bar instead of the gym and telling some stranger my woes. This is why I cannot drink.

V, your alternative exchange is great and I would have never even thought to say those things in that way. That's so different from the way I talk....that's what I need to be saying/doing! I guess I looked pretty pathetic with what I said. Man, now I'm questioning myself...

[broke]

Hope,

I told everyone my story during the first 2-3 months. Anyone who would listen - I guess it was because it was so surreal and I couldn't believe it was happening. Maybe saying it out loud over and over would make me believe it was really happening. I am sorry your night got off track - hoping today is much better!

Vanilla's take on the text was great. That is why this board is so helpful - this db'ing is not easy! Have you decided what to do about this weekend?

[TimR]

Vanilla, should do a thread on text responses! Sorry to hijack the thread but I could definitely use some examples like that!

[HopeRB]

TimR, I agree, we need a good reference guide b/c those texts are a doozy. Vanilla, please help us out!

[HopeRB]

broke, same here. In the beginning, I used to tell all sorts of strangers about my sitch. Lately, I've been challenging myself to find something else to talk about b/c theres so much more to me than this craziness.

It's so frustrating to know I could've done better in my exchange with him. I think I take it even harder b/c I have so littler interaction with him so I really want it to be spot on when I do get to interact with him.

[broke]

Are you meeting him this weekend? If so, that's your chance. I say ask for help about that. Maybe prepare. Try to make that better than last interaction!

We can't be too hard on ourselves. Learn from our mistakes and try not to make them again. If we get too down, our GALing and 180s are too hard to do because we are so sad. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for, Hope! Keep trying!

[HopeRB]

Yes, trying to go through all the material on here...it's alot to remember and get it drilled in my head. I'm almost too nervous to make a mistake that will set me back eons.