Need help. Threading water, must learn to swim.

[G8r]

Took D3 to circus tonight. She had a blast and I had fun watching her.

Almost didn't make it though. WW initiated relationship talk tonight right before leaving. She made extra food and asked if I wanted any. No thank you. She asked if I would eat it over the weekend while she was away. No thank you. Then she asked if I ever liked her food. Told her I used to live her food and still like it but I'm not interested in eating it. That led to her asking if I got the papers and that it's not what she wants but I never listened to her and now there is no hope. I didn't whine and beg her to come back but I also didn't do a good of Dbing and affirmation. I blew a good opportunity to make a little progess. Interestingly, she also mentioned that she felt that she had to be the man in the relationship, which is true to an extent. I let her pay bills and run the house because she is controlling and it I thought it made my life easier. She also didn't like that I didn't take her out enough and initiate activities with her. Sounds like stuff I'll need to work on. Actually those were things I wanted to change but I don't see any current opportunities to show her change in those areas other than doing things with D3.

I sooooooo wanted to reopen the discussion when I returned from the circus but didn't. Figured it would make me look needed than I already feel. Guess I need some more self reflection.