Just got home and I'm exhausted. Worked all day, then gym, then DivorceCare. Looooong day.
I had a couple sad spells today thinking about WAW and how this all happened but was able to bounce back quicker than usual, so that's good.
I'm also starting to feel angry again. I find myself cursing W under my breath. I have a feeling my anger is going to get worse as time goes on.
I'm trying not to allow myself feel like a victim. After all, I chose to be in a R with a recovering alcoholic. But part of me does feel victimized, I feel like I went above and beyond for our relationship (I'm codependent after all) and she took advantage of that and hung me out to dry.
Now I'm left to pick up the pieces, figure out what to do with "our" house that I paid for without any assistance from her and she gets to walk away scott free. Her name isn't on the loan.
So while I stress about how to pay the mortgage, and all the bills, she gets to live with her mother for free and save money to get her own place.
I know I need to suck it up and move forward, but for now, I'm angry.
