Not sure where to stand

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Sparks...you sound like you're in a really healthy place. Pretty incredible considering the loss your are fighting through.

I think one of the things that does help me when I start to feel anxious, sad, broken...is that the real honest to God truth is....IT REALLY WILL BE OKAY.

That doesn't remove the fact that it [censored] right now...but there will be a day when it doesn't suck. It was great to see your positive post!