Long time

[Nel]

Thanks, Cil and Peace. I had a rough couple of days. I decided to finally get a DB coach because I was at a loss as to what to do next. That brought me some internal peace because she agreed with some of the things that I was seeing and feeling about H, and also gave me a new idea to try.

Here is what I'm afraid of with H: He said before that this divorce wouldn't be like his parents (which was very nasty)....that he wanted to be friends and we would always talk about our Ds. He just doesn't want to be married anymore. How do I fight an attitude like this? I don't initiate contact and I rarely see him except at D17s games (which will end next week). When we do see each other and talk, we are both friendly. Financially, we are totally on our own because everything has been split already. So, he already has what he wants...total control and freedom of his own life.

What if he is actually happier without me? This is my biggest fear.