I Think it's Way Too Late

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Hi Tim,
just checking in really quick. The L wants me to track down a bunch of docs, on the upside things look really good for me keeping what's left of the trust and the properties. The docs could save me a lot of $. Downside - why is this thing on such a fast track? Apparently, that's what the CA divorce courts are all about.

Anyway - the classes are held all over the bay area, sometimes 2-3 a month. My issue is - it's not that the W is attending, but she is actually part of the business. She helps this lady register people, takes their money, gets them on mailing lists etc.

When we both used to help, I'd help her do what her Husband did (friend who has Parkinson's) as far as set up the audio, move things around, general organization. For a while I was even video recording her seminars.

So, my comfort level would have to be letting the W barb me at her slightest whim, if I could even get into the classes. I have no idea what she told the coach - I know money is money but the coach has turned down plenty of people because they either didn't fit in the class, or she didn't like the way they dressed. I figured I'd have no problem getting in when the 2 of them were not seeing each other - but now all of a sudden the W is back in good graces. Could she be using the D as a sympathy play? You bet.

At least at the moment I'm not going to worry about it. I don't have my license - I got thrown way off on everything and my scheduled test was last month. I couldn't take any sort of test right now, I'm waiting to see if my brain comes back any time soon. I started up the studies again, only to remember how much I'd forgotten and how little I can concentrate.

The other thing that makes me really sad is that because of this falling out between the two - I stopped seeing my friend with Parkinson's. The coach made the relationship strange enough (like insisting I get paid to stay with him while she was traveling), but in hindsight she was probably right. Doing free things because somebody is a friend hasn't worked for me at all it seems. I suppose after almost 60 years I need to reassess what friendship is and how it works.

I'm awfully glad that this D has made me so incredibly cynical.

I'll try to check back in later this evening - thanks for the well wishes Tim, I appreciate it. I hope you're hanging in there as well - or as best you can.