No, I do want the M I had..maybe an improved one but not the same exact one.
I didn't realize what I was doing and I'm glad you pointed it out. In my head I just donot want to talk or see him and it was my way of dealing.
I guess Ido want a reaction..maybe make me feels like he cares. I don't know.
I just do not know how to be around him, loving him, knowing what he is doing, while still wanting to be with him, but not really be with him. I dont know anymore.
The paragraph of pain is 100% true and exactly how I feel.
I am going to minimize my confrontations..even though I think it will make him happy. Me being nice and happy, his ow nice and happy, kids nice and happy.. Best of everything.
