broke, I have the same thoughts as you and this is already good advice.
So I'm going to make sure I can stick to DBing if I meet with him and if I feel I can't, then I will have to tell him I am unavailable. But I so want to see his face, hear his voice. Before, when we were in false reconciliation and he was fighting with himself to come back home and, I was able to start our in person interactions very light and breezy, aloof and fun but then started to drift into "come back home" mode which I realize made me look pathetic and only made him move on guilt. This will of course need to be a completely different interaction and this is the pressure point for me and where I need clear guidance on what to do.
I just finished reading V's post and digesting it...had a few questions based on what you said. Thank you for your support today, broke.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."