Hope,

I am so sorry you are feeling so low. Remember I am new to this db'ing and I am still making tons of mistakes, but, IMHO, I think you should only meet with your H this weekend if you think you can stick to db'ing. Otherwise, it may do exactly what you don't want to do: force him to take actions you don't want. He may feel backed into a corner to rush into decisions. He is still in affair fog and it will cloud his judgment. Can you just stick to the tax information, be light and breezy just to show how you are doing and then end the interaction before he does? I hope some others weigh in here, but that is my opinion. Take it for what it's worth.

Also, I don't know if you saw Vanilla's post to my sitch, but take a look. It is extremely helpful and you may get some good advice on there from her, too.

I hope you can get some exercise or do something that moves you forward today....thinking of you


M 44 H 46
M 20yrs T 25 yrs
S15 S12

ILYBINILWY 7/18/15
Move to MBR 9/8/15
Physical Separation 10/10/15
Suspect A 8/2015
Confirm A 12/27/15
D filed by H 2/2/16