Back again 8 years later

[daybyday]

Yesterday was good and bad day as far as my dbing went. Trying to detach is hard. I found that I was sullen and quiet around WAW rather than happy. I let my anger at sitch take over and thats how it manifests itself, as sullen quiet. Didnt want to even look at WAW.

I'm sure she sensed it. After the discussion about her soon moving out for separation, we aired some of our grievances. One that I had no idea about was getting our S13 up for school. Making his breakfast and lunch. WAW said she has felt like a single mother. I was raised with a SAHM who did all that while my Dad worked and supported family. So my upbringing clouds my perception of that duty. But my WAW works so I wished she had asked. There were times when I would try to do it but I would get frustrated because she would tend to micromanage my every move. "I normally dont give him those" or "he likes these things better.

Anyway, as she is still in house I will try from now on to put my best smile on and be the best me.

I got up early and made S breakfast and lunch and made sure that he was up. WAW came up from basement and was surprised.

I know that since we are going to be separated that I do have some time to turn my sitch around. It would be like a 99 yard touchdown drive with 1minute left. Not likely, but possible.
I also realize that her agreeing to sep. rather than straight to D may be her way of easing me into the D. But I have to try.

Last night my anger with sitch made it a bearable night with no despair. Lets hope for better days.