You were 100% correct. I got the niceness from him. I was prepared and EXPECTED it and knew IT WAS NOT BECAUSE HE MISSES ME. I do not know what is worse. Him being sweet or him being mean.
Being mean hurts but keeps me away..being nice makes me..sad. Sad of the old H. Sad of how it used to be. Sad because I know it is his cycle. Sad.
It is because it is his cycle and that I have you V and KNOW now even though I do still LOVE HIM, I'm less IN love and more in love with the idea I think of my old perfect family. Makes it easier to detach and not have any hope..plus I had the beggining of D papers under my mattress lol.
He texted me at 6:02 am when he got off and said he was coming over to bring me money.
He came in, hugged and kissed kids, woke them up, had them bouncing all over my bed. Gave me 2 half hugs(leaned over bed standing) while I was fake sleeping, got me ice water. No kiss but laid his face against my cheek. I just pretend to be exhausted so I didnt need to talk.
He left and called.
Me in a very drowsy sleepy voice: hello?
H: hey you never told me about alexas school. Shes so smart. She reads to herself and did it herself. I'm so proud of her.
Me:huh oh I know I teach her everyday shes top of her class. I'm really tired. When did you even leave ( i knew he left i just didnt want him to know he hugged me like a creep.)
H: oh..I told you I was and gave you and kids hugs and kisses.
Me:sorry didnt notice
H: well I did but you wouldnt get up and see me
H: are you snoring? Hello?
Me:I'm really tired( not really I'm wide awake) I'll see you later ok
H: no I work tonight you know my schedule
Me: oh I dont know I cant remember
H: well you werent even paying attention when we talked yesterday. Yoh were too busy trying to talk to other people and friends over me. You only were on the phone but had no interest in what i was saying.
Me:you said something about fishing and something else..i dont know but I'm going to sleep now
My phone goes BEEP BEEP BEEP
H: there it goes again. Who wants to talk to you at 6:30 am..(pouty pissy voice.)
Me: fake sleeping
H: alright sleepy head i will call you later
Me:mhmm
H:i said I'll call you later
Me:mhmm
H: i dont have to if you dont want me to
Me: fake sleeping
H: sigh..go to sleep. Good night. Click.
My baby bro made 60,000$ this year off shore lobstering..he only went 4 months this year. He paid for my moms 700$ a month health insurance when she had breast cancer, paid all her bills and sent her spending money because she used all her pto already on cancer surgeries and appts.
He is a good egg. My sister is my backbone. She is a tough butt lesbian who hits like a dude but dresses like a princess. They are both younger but keep me up. I love them.
My brother said he makes more then enough money that he said if I want when I move out he is willing to prepay a house or appt for a YEAR in advance to help me and the kids or send 1000$ a month to help.
Last week he made 1200$ in 8 hours on the boat. So for him it is pocket change and would help ne. He keeps telling me I'll be fine because NOTHING BAD will ever happen to his babies.
HE LOVES MY KIDS. he bought them 300-400$ ride on cars.. 400$ trampoline..800$ spending money on our cruise 500$ disney ticket.. He spoils them rotten.
