You'll have more better days (or so they tell me). But you can't ask yourself if it was worth the pain while you're still bleeding. Ask a pregnant woman right after giving birth if she wants more kids. The answe is always no. But given time, the pain is forgotten for the gift it brought.
But I also know all about where you are right now. I've been feeling that all day. Dropping the rope,saying nope I'm done and going into protect mode but I also know that yesterday I felt different and I'll likely feel different tomorrow.
M:26 H:32 T:8yrs ILYBNILWY/ "I'm not happy": 2/6/16 D-Day-discovered PA/EA: 2/10/16 Separated: 2/14/16 He's living with OW I moved to different state: 06/16 Currently: Trying to move forward