Divorce Papers

[TimR]

I am just so disappointed (what happens when you have expectations) and angry. My god am I angry!!

From here on out, I need to work on the anger and focus on the kid!

Thornton, I read your story of your exwife. That is my fear, how much fight do I have in me? Am I just going to have nothing left when she finally realizes the mistake she made? Will I be empty for her with nothing left to give. In the end will it all be for nothing? I can see a clear picture on others' thread but when it come to me, I just don't know... nothing is clear and I feel I am just spinning my wheels. Every insult kills a little more of my heart, will there be anything left alive in me when she is done or I decide to finally move on?

Really, how will I have trust again! My very first love, whom I was pre-engaged to in high school also cheated on me. Funny thing is it was at the same time as my dad caught my mom cheating. It was not until this relationship that I ever trusted someone. Even then I don't think I ever really let her in. So now whether I ever get W back or move on to a new relationship, how will I ever trust anyone again? How could I not have a wall built around my heart?