Thanks Thornton and ciluzen. And great analogy ciluzen - it makes me feel like, "well damn", but then I want to go somewhere and be the awesome, confident and lovable woman I was made to be. I was able to snap out of it a bit, just another moment of weakness and I think I know why.
Not initiating, pursuing, asking, questions, etc. Figuring it all out by myself. Though wondering what to do about our taxes and financial things and how I should contact him about that.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
