My WW often gets mad at me and complains that I am trying to make her the bad guy by refusing to say that the D is partially my idea. I refuse to take ownership of that because I still don't want it. I told my WW early on that the only way I would be ok with a D was if we made an honest attempt to R and it still didn't work out. That never happened so the D is completely on her. That's not to say I'm shirking responsibility for problems in our M. I'm not. We both ccontributed to our problems. It's just that she has chosen to blow everything up because working is too hard. It's easier to run from problems than confront t problems.
I could've written this exact paragraph to describe my situation. When I got the papers, my S12 said "well just don't sign them or the court can deny the divorce because we should be a family". Not only was it devastating for me but for my sons, too. And, I absolutely hate splitting up the time with my kids also. It makes me so sad that we can't take family vacations and the kids are shuttled back and forth.
I am still db'ing for myself and my M. But, I so understand how you feel. It is heartbreaking - like you are on a runaway train and you can't do anything to stop it. Know that you are not alone in your sadness, G8r. I hope today is a better day.
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16
