Who knows what he's thinking. I know how frustrating that is, and it's hard not to obsess. I struggle with that too.
Take a look at my thread and what Mach1 wrote to me about hope. That might help you.
Also, the folks here that got their WAS back, had to let them go before the WAW started sniffing around again. That's going to take some time.
Keep going to the gym, keep posting here, and try to give yourself a break. This stuff is hard to get through and there's no cure. Get through today. Then tomorrow morning, reset, and get through tomorrow.
