Not sure where to stand

[Sparkls]

I"m a 4th year med student. I'll be graduating in May and starting residency in June/July. I'm in individual counseling through my school. We're only a couple sessions in but I like my counselor a lot. I have a lot of things that I've repressed that I probably need to fully address (deaths of family members, being disowned by my family due to greed on their part, all the things with the bf etc).

As far as goals:
I used to be happy all the time. Despite everything that I've been through, I always had fun, I loved being around people, I was fun, witty and creative. In med school, I lost all of that. I was too busy and depression set in and I never really realized it. I'm on antidepressants now, and finding the things I used to love (writing, reading, piano). It's a slow process though. Can't make changes overnight I suppose.
I want to start exercising more. Again, med school has stolen all of my life and I stopped. I'm walking my dogs for about 1.5 hours every day. May start going ot the gym at school again once my heel heals a bit. Right now I'm not really eating but I had started a really good diet before sh*t hit the fan that I intend to continue.
Other short term goals:
My house is a disaster area and I will be moving in 3 months so I'm starting to organize and box things and donate old things.
Getting tags figured out for my car.
Unfortunately, a lot of my planning has to wait for March 18th when I Found out where I"m going for residency. Then it'll be a push to find a house, sell this one, move etc.


As far as why I fell for Bf, that's a really hard one to answer. We just fit. We liked enough of the same things to have things to talk about but also had our own interests that we liked to share. We had similar life goals (have a good family, kids, a warm and welcoming home). Physically we were very compatible. I loved that he was nerdy and silly. I have said he helps keep me young because I have a tendency to act like a 50 year old. He reminded me to have fun and be goofy and I reminded him to be a bit more serious and practical. We just balanced each other out is the best way I can describe it. I hope that makes sense.